(3/3) from guilt. Today I heard it because we betrayed her trust. How could we have let that girl put a hole through her ears. She looks cute.

(2/3) whining cry and a cry of pain. The first time I heard it I new that it was something she had never felt before. The first time mommy heard it she wept

(1/3) As a new parent I don't know if I will ever get used to the sound of my daughter crying in pain. By now I can tell the difference between a hungry cry, a

Month 2

The second month has just flown by. Carolina's tummy is much better :) But due to me hugging her all the time whe her tummy hurt now all she wants is to be in somebody's arms. Oh well, I figure i better enjoy it because one of these days she's not going to want me to hold her.

During this month Carolina got to experience her first thunderstorm. Fortunatelly it did not scare her. She's used to listening to storms thanks to Scout, a little plush dog that makes nature sounds.

Carolina got to celebrate her first Halloween. The weater was nice so we went to our neighbors Ray & Judy and Joe Allen's. Everybody that walked by said she was a cute baby but by 8:00pm she was done.

We officially kicked off the holiday season by helping Elvia make Tamales. Carolina loves watching Elvia cook. I think she loves her because Elvia talks to her all the time.

Letter to Santa

Dear Santa,
It is going to be my 1st Christmas and I would really like a red wagon. It will be the best gift since I will be able to ride in it and when I grow up I can help my dad by pulling the garden tools in it. I promise to be a good girl.
Sincerely,
Carolina

1st month

A month has already gone by and it feels like it just flew by. This month has had highs and lows. The highs have been watching Carolina grow, watching her smile, listening to her grunt, listening to her sleep. The lows seem to have been brutal. Paul keeps on reminding me that it's not bad compared to what other babies go thru in our little world, that is our family, it's still pretty crummy. What I'm referring to is the fact that out of Carolina's month of life I have been on antibiotics for 3 weeks. Usually being on antibiotics is not bad but since she's nursing, my milk makes her stomach hurt. She gets cramps and a lot of gas. The worst thing is that when she feels bad all wants to do is eat but when she eats it hurts her stomach and then she wants to eat and the evil circle repeats itself. It is heartbreaking to see her go from smiling to crying in pain. I never thought something so little could make me cry so much. Every time that she cries in pain I apologize (for having to be on antibiotics), hug her, and kiss her. I hope that she only remembers how much she is loved and not how much her stomach hurts.

Bath Time

Today was a big day. Today is the first time that I give Carolina a bath by myself. I was very happy because

1. Carolina didn't poop in the tub (only on my hand).
2. Carolina didn't cry
3. I didn't cry
4. I didn't drown the baby
5. We survived

The bath tired Carolina enough to make her want to take a nap. I took advantage and took a shower. It was probably the fastest shower but I showered.

Today is special because Carolina and I did this all by ourselves while Paul is at work bringing home the bacon.